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you can find me @ foxysoxy -- :) add me, and I'll add ya back:)
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Friday, January 24th, 2003
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That my friends is my current temperature. BLAH!
This past week has been insane! I finally decided I was too sick not to go to the doctors. But my regular doctor apparently doesnt work fridays. so I had to see the doc my dad usually sees, a doc I really dont like, and I really don't think he's got a handle on things. Anyway, according to him I have: possible Strep, a severe sinus infection, severe dehydration, and post nasal drip.
wasn't he just the bearer of good f-ing news?
Needless to say, I call work to tell them I can't really fill prescriptions today, after all then I would just further infect those picking up meds...and they catch an attitude. Well too damn bad!
my friend Jared calls me, (he's on a military base in Texas) I consider him to be one of my best friends, (he was one of my west point babies)...and he calls to tell me that a mutual friend of ours who was in special opps over in Afghanistan...is coming home...he got his left leg blown off by stepping on a bomb.
Needless to say, I spent alot of hours on the phone crying and well just being a support to Jared..whose probably not going to be going over any time soon, but as a leitenant, will probably be seeing more action than he's ever wanted to.
Tam called me last night and it was the nicest surprise in the world. Totally made me smile:) It amazes me that small things like a random phone call can totally brighten my spririts.
Oh! and my one class that I was NOT looking forward too...isn't f-ing required.....guess whose getting out of that h-whole quicker than you can say 'what class is that V?'
Right. Going to go highly medicate myself again and get some more rest.
also--anyone reccomend any good cd's to get? To just relax to, write to...etc...???
BIG HUGS to everyone:)
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Thursday, January 23rd, 2003
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Yeah Soooo now I can make cute icons..go team go:) Anyway. I'm sick as a dawg! And its getting hard as hell to breathe--not a good thing.
I've been puling 40+ hours at work and school started this week. Tonight is my Topics in Science Lab..to say I'm a little nervous (I always get this way before everything starts) is an understatment.
Arghhh.
But yea. Todays' Dad's bday and they're going out to dinner with out me...cuz I'll be in school...fun fun...
But yeah. Icons. Cool. and I drooled over Justin:)
oh well, it's the little things kids:)
bought the J. Mayer cd--could be better..but not sucky sucky.
till next time..hope all is well with everyone.
V
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Monday, January 20th, 2003
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Blah.
It's been a busy ass 2 weeks. My uncle Phil is here (from Ireland). Me and Stacey are gonna have an all out blow out when she gets back from vacation, the shit she's pulled at work is CRAZY!
Mary came home this weekend and I drooled over Orlando Bloom for the millionth time:)
I am waiting for my invoice to change to a paid account, with a new name--all will be informed.
I am feeling much better mentally. Good days to be me:)
Me and Mel are going to be going to BarTending school in a week or so and then I'll probably be working in the City at least three or four times a week.
Me and Chris are 'talking'. It's an interesting situation, but sadly he's gonna have to put a damn lot into it if he wants me to take him back.
Ryan headed back to school, as did Kevin but had a great break with them. Kevin is going to be coming with me to Ireland this spring break:)
And yeah.,
I'll talk more later....we're going to play monopoly...
stupid question: I love J. Mayers- 'wonderland'---is the cd just as good?
:)
till next time, smiles love and all that mushy she-ot :)
V
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Wednesday, January 15th, 2003
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Tuesday, January 14th, 2003
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ok watching TRL and wow
all i can say:
Britney and Fred D===why is that so cute yet so scary?
and if justin and christina get together when they tour I will...well be very upset!
just heads up, I'm going to be getting a paid account and changing my name. Will post more later:)
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Tuesday, January 7th, 2003
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Monday, January 6th, 2003
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Since I've updated. Primarily because I've been up making a fool of myself in Vermont, snowboarding and reminding myself that it's the tiniest things in life that make you smile for hours on end.
I spent my New Years in a cabin with people who I adore and now realize, the feeling is mutual. I played drunk Scrabble- I totally reccomend it :)
The trip itself wasn't supposed to happen originally, well actually I wasn't supposed to go. At the time I was asked to come along, I was still with Chris and he didn't want me spending my n. years with out him or with Kevin--so I was almost 'forbidden' to go. Which was weird in itself, because C was NEVER the kind of guy to get jealous.
Anyway.
Afer the mess of Chris and me, Kevin called and was just
asking for the daily update, when he found out about me and Chris, well he wasn't a happy camper. He pretty much demanded I go on this trip. He said my brain and body needed to remember fun, love and laughing.
The man delivered.
We left on Monday before New Years along with Joey (my track buddy from high school), his girlfriend Renee. Jake (another friend from high school) and his best friend, the resident bi-sexual who does stand up--- Ray.
To say I laughed would be an under statement. I fell on my ass too many times. Everyone except me and Ray could ski. So we decided snow boarding would be ok, I am bruised and my stomach hurts from laughing at myself and at Ray.
I reccomend getting a good laugh at yourself- it cures every bad thing.
the week was amazing. Kevin didn't pursue anything romantic, just offered what he does best- his heart and his strength. He's the greatest friend I could have ever asked for. And Joe, Renee, Jake and Ray well there soo special!
So that explains it, I'll write more later and say a little prayer that all of you are doing just as well:)
till next time, same screen, same girl, different day-
V
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Sunday, December 29th, 2002
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| Time: | 10:04 pm. |
| Music: | young boy- Clipse. |
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Blach! Everytime I try and change this thing around it just looks...blach!
But on another note.... things here in NY are hectic. And ever-changing. Still have yet to see Two Towers, but have obsessively watched LOTR at least four times this weekend.
Got to see my friend Anthony, who've I haven't seen in six months since he moved to Cali. (Ant is my longest known friends, we traded insults in diapers:) )
Chris and Ryan were over today and thats just too much in itself.
I am hightailing to Vermont on Tuesday morning, with Kevin and co.
*yes this is Kevin previously mentioned*
Deb and J are taking me out to dinner when I get back (they are c's mom and aunt).
Things between myself and C are completely weird, since Amanda (the ex he slept with) and her family spent X-Mas with him and his family. Nausiating to say the least.
I am doing my best as of now to just get me better. It just sucks cuz so much of me is used to being that strong ass girl that holds the weight of everyone's problems on her shoulders. And now I'm weak and I just want it to end.!
And as always..I hate work:) Well theres the update, not enough time for more but I hope any and everyone reading this has a safe, happy and kick ass christmas and that they have an even better and safer new year.:)
Much love to all!
V
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Wednesday, December 25th, 2002
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| Time: | 3:07 pm. |
| Mood: |  dorky. | | Music: | aerosmith- sweet emotion. |
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Merry Christmas All:)
I hope everyones day is going well and that you're all surrounded by family, love, good food, and good times:)
It's snowing here in NY- blizzard-esc--so it curtails my hopes and dreams of drooling over the Lord of the Rings TT.
But we shall see.
Again- Merry X-to the -MAS:)
V
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Sunday, December 22nd, 2002
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So I haven't written in here in a little while. Of course, as always there are reasons. Life calls and the time to write how I'm feeling lessens. As in every aspect of life, good and bad always occur in all situations.
The last time I wrote in here, things between me and C were perfect. And then no more than a day later it all went to hell in a hand basket. I found out, not by him, but by Amanda (yes, the ex) that he recently slept with her, twice.
I'd never had anyone I'd really cared about cheat me of my emotions that way. Then again, I don't let alot of people get that close. Who would have thought someone who I'd loved as my best friend and was just accepting as something much closer to my heart, would break it so easily. Words can't begin to define the amount of grief my heart is in. To say the least, holidays are dampened.
When I talked to him about it, it was one of the hardest conversations I've had in my life. To hear it from his mouth, to hear his voice break down, in complete honestly, a little piece of me was lost in the void.
I don't really want to write too much about it, cuz , well it sucks, it's a hard time on top of everything.
Strength is something I've been trying to build, and this was my ultimate blow.
So I appologize for not writting that often. I think eveyone can understand why.
The negative always comes in threes, so my grandmother told me, and now I completely believe her.
You don't have to read past this if you don't want to...
(LJ cut here)
Stacey. She is the second blow to a weak heart. Stacey for six years was my best friend. Someone who understood my downs and tried her best to be there for me.
But just like the story goes, the boyfriend was found and the friend is forgotten.
To put it simply. She cares nothing about what I'm going through, how she treats me, or if there is a friendship left between us.
She actually hangs out with my ex boyfriend more than she does with me. I don't see her beyond work, were she treats me with disdain and as if I was beneathe her.
For awhile I was in denial of how much hurts, but to be lied to- face to face, eye to eye, well damn people, it just about sucks a bucket.
the part that hurts the most is she doesnt care. At all. For all I've done for her, she cares not a wink.
The THIRD blow.
Well, I think it's pretty much obvious to anyone who reads the journal that depression, as in the real disease is apart of my every day life. And to say it's incapacitating would be the understatement of the year. I don't write in too much detail in here because well it's something I feel weird talking about, no one thinks being friends with someone who is depressed is a cool thing...so why bother?
So yeah, I think I might just sign off from this crazy thing and just...I dont know.
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Friday, December 13th, 2002
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Right so last night I have this weird dream--shocking--i didnt think so :0)
I'm in this parking lot, its right by the high school I went to. Right next to the parking lot is a soft ball field and a larger field for field hockey.
I try and stay in shape excersizing in the sports I love. So I was doing laps and dribbling the ball when a friend of mine, Jenn (a real life stalker--she's met every memeber of NSYNC, BACSKTREET and well just everyone...lol) and I was finishing working out when I go up to say hi and start my run back. She's like, "don't tell anyone, but Justin and JC are gonna be here."
So of course I say I won't say anything. And then there was Justin. But he had the fro back...and I just ignored him, I didn't know what was going on.
But he kept looking at me from the corner of his eyes.
I tell Jenn I'm just gonna head home and she nods and tells me she'll IM me with all the info. I just nod and go to leave...
...but then I'm not in the parking lot, I'm in this den of someones home. Justin is next to me and his hair is short, like it is now. Anyway, Chris and Joey are there, Lance was there too,but not with me. And Im sitting in this place with all of them and Jen and her friend Kelly. I know that Jen doesn't want me to really flirt with any of them, so I dont.
But then Jen and Kelly leave for something and I'm left with the members of NSYNC.
And all I could think is that I don't have anything to talk about with these guys. And then JC starts to talking about politics and I'm agreeing with him. Justin is next to me and starts whispering in my ear ...and for gosh sakes-- can't remember what he was saying. But the last thing I remember is turning towards him to say something and his lips brushing against the side of my mouth. It was haunting, soft and just perfect and then I WOKE UP! arghhh..
needless to say, Justin Timberlake's lips have haunted me ever since.
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| Time: | 11:33 pm. |
| Mood: | Blessed. | | Music: | C'est La Vie- Shania Twain. |
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Ah it's the littlest things in this life that make the moments we hate and treasure the most. That being said, I'm gonna chit chat, with y'all, about the things that have made me smile as of recently:)
Yes, I know I've done this before, but I just can't stop myself. Plus, didn't Oprah say to write down our blessings? So here I go:
1) Chris went out and bought me the Shania Twain Cd, telling me it was a happy cd and I needed to smile more often, its one of the many reasons he continues to fall in love with me. *sigh*
2) After watching random MTV Movie house specials, Im pretty much in love with most of the Lord Of The Rings cast, specifically- Elijah Wood---who I hated for so long lol. But something about his laugh makes me crush a little.
3) (Kathy don't kill me for this one) Justin Timberlake. Yep. can't deny it any longer. He's sexy,talented and just the right amount of cocky---besides his lips haunt my dreams (see next entry to understand a little better.)
4) Shania Twain- woman is beautiful and she has an amazing new cd--ask for for Christmas y'all! (she's got two cds in one. one cd is rocky/pop and the other is country mix:))
5) It's a humbling thing when you realize how special and talented the people around you are. (too each and everyone reading this...it's for you) and I'm awed day to day, moment to moment by the blessings in my days, blessings everyone else calls friends. I wish only the happiest of lifes and loves for them;)
6) TLC-Delivery Room--can't stop the obsession! Really its getting bad
7) when I'm writting and I KNOW it's going and it's something I'm so proud of. (*new story in the works and this includes Cliche and Chicago)
8)my little puppies- can't tell ya---unconditional love in a slobbery cute package changes the world.
and thats it, but still, amazing. Blessed. Today the word to describe me is Blessed.
so thank you:)
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Wednesday, December 11th, 2002
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| Time: | 9:47 pm. |
| Mood: |  mellow. | | Music: | Clipse-ma I dont love her. |
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I haven't been writting alot in here lately due to craziness in every aspect in my life.
Honestly, theres been good days, better days, bad days and worse days. But each day is a learning experience for me and thats all that matters at the end of the day.
But due to all those kinds of days, I haven't had that much energy to be involved on this aspect of life, so if anyone feels like I dont care or I'm a little to quiet- dont take it personal, I still love y'all like crazy:)
Its the typical relationship strains with my parents.
Dealing with the aspect of growing up.
Shopping like a mo-fo for christmas (TAM gift will be sent in two days:)
Work sucks and come February or maybe even January- I am getting a new one, --there is far too much stress and I dont deserve the shit I get nor the owners pets I work with...eh hem--even my friends at work are ridiculous.
A friendship of so long is coming to a close without the other person realizing it. Which is sad beyond belief- but such is growing up.
Everyday I am more and more amazed by Chris and how good he is to me and how good I actually make him feel--which is all the reward I could possibly wantin the world...
I never got to go to the Army/NAvy game because of work, but I did get to see everyone and I cherished last weekend like you wouldn't believe.
And yeah. But I hope all is well with EVERYONE and Jenny---I'm soo happy your gonna have D there with ya all the time--y'all need sme love 24/7:)
Right. Happy Holidays, I'll update as much as I can. and LOVE YA ALL TA PIECES:)
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Wednesday, December 4th, 2002
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Random Gossip:
Brian and Leighanne named their baby boy: Baylee Thomas Wylee
Um I feel nausious---could they be any more white trash....grrr!
also Tara Reid and JC--official and I feel sick again...lol wonder if the disaster of 'blowin me up' is because of tara?
just had to share
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Random Gossip:
Brian and Leighanne named their baby boy: Baylee Thomas Wylee
Um I feel nausious---could they be any more white trash....grrr!
also Tara Reid and JC--official and I feel sick again...lol
just had to share
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Right. I know I haven't really updated this sucker--but life has been hectic. Dad is going through some crisis' at work. As in he's worked there for 23 years and because of some asswipe winning a court case (in internal affairs) and now my dad is getting a job that's not as cool and NOT good for him. My dad is the kind of guy everyone wants as a boss. On September 11th he was the only person/supervisor to go BACK INTO THE BUILDING and make sure everyone was out.
Stupid-probably, but thats how much he cares! But he didn't get an award, the fat lady who didn't come into work for 2months did...while my dad fought for the workers and constantly was a person they could lean on while they were in need, even though he was suffering as well. It's not a decrease in salary, or grade (term in US CUSTOMS), but it still sucks. His boss told him he was going to be moved to a cubicle..after they've moved my dads office three times since Sept 11th. He is the highest ranking and has the most time done...it's aggravating. becuase I know, and the people who work for him know how amazing he is at his job. In a test done nation wide, my dad placed in the 80th percentile....meaning he was better than more than half the supervisors out there!
Grr!
Ok right, so the problem I want YOUR (yes YOU reading this) opinion on.
My friend Dave---he went to West Point and he's like a brother to me. Is coming back to NY for a visit this weekend. It also happens to be Army/Navy weekend. You know big game, televised and all. And yeah. Dave (*whose post is in SC) calls and tells me he got me a ticket to go with him and his friend.
The problem I have work.
The situation:
Dec 7th (this sat, the day of the game) is also my moms 50th b-day. I had already put down I coulnd't work, but then Stacey booked a hotel in Foxwoods for her and her boyfriend (mind you I told her I needed it off for my mommy!) ANYWAY The pharmacy is completley non functioning with out a tech (stacey/me). So what do I do?
I haven't seen Dave in over six months and I probably won't see him any time soon if not for this game. It's also a HUGE and FUN football game. I'll be surrounded by men (good looking ones) and I'll be with a guy who melts my heart like butter (dave).
I want to tell them tomorrow the reason I can'twork. BUT I CANT think of a good 'lie' obviously- hey- I can't work cuz I'm going to a football game doesn't WORK....so HELP Anyone , who can think of anything...PLEASE PLEASE ASAP write me....I beg of you!
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Wednesday, November 27th, 2002
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http://missvaughn.friendtest.com.
HAD TO CHANGE IT CUZ Kev said it was alll messed up...
that is my little link for my freinds test but I'm html-retarded so just paste and copy and goooooo..
and Tam---I demand a recount of your friggin test there were two answers to some of those questions!!!!!
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